Being Beauty Is Agonizing

Ever think of going under plastic surgery to become prettier than you are now???

Watched 200 pounds of beauty????

Well....

Its nice...

Ive just watched it today...

The story tells a tale that a large girl undergo an extreme makeover to become a pop sensation...

And also to win the heart of her loved ones.

Moral of the story :

We dont need to be fake to hide our 'real identity'.

Just be yourself and everyone will accept it.

Am I being too emotional???

Life is like this...

We cant change or decide whats our fate...

Why some people maybe lucky to have a good life???

Why not me?!!??

When one person feel stressed/frustrated, they will cry. Just like me. Im the kind of person that like to keep my own problem to myself. I can trust NOBODY in this world!!! Everyone is fake!!! Thats why I prefer to keep everything to myself.

Year 2008 isnt a very good year for me. As Im suffering for depression alot this month. All the problems make me feel frustrated with my life. One day, I cry in front of everyone as I cant stand anymore.

All the

Pressure...
Nonsense...
Lies...

Thats hurt!!!

I think cry is the best way for me to release all my depression for these few weeks.

[ Nobody Can Fix ME ]

My Current Mood... Sad and Depressed

It is a fate that we have to be like this??? No Care... No Love... Just Disappointment...

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal
Sometimes you can't always see
The pain someone feels.

GSC QBM 1st Annual Dinner 2008

Its raining when Im about to go to fetch Sobana. But luckily its drizziling when we reach G Hotel. We reached there same time with Azewan and his friends. So, we enter the G Hotel together to find the place for our annual dinner.

Cant believe that we are having our annual dinner at G Spot, buffet and clubbing style. Thats great. I love it. I can HIT THE DANCE FLOOR!!! Lol!!! We start the party late as most of the people arrive late. Well, first of all a speech from our AA, Miss Shilawanis. Then, cake cutting ceremony by Mr Sam together with the staff that are born in the month of January until March. Of course, Im one of them. Here comes the important part... FOOD!!!! Nice food they have prepared such as

Fried Rice, Fried BeeHoon, Lasagna, Pizza, Chicken Tandoori, Fruits like honeydew, watermelon and dragonfruit, cheese cakes and some malay kuih.

While eating, we are having a lucky draw at the same time. Great prizes to be won. They have DVD players and Mp3 players too. GOD!!! I was praying so hard to get the Mp3 player but I didnt get it..... Sob sob... Why they all didnt draw my number?? Im 35!!! Haizzz.

Besides that, the person that get the lucky draw prizes have to dance or sing before they get their prize. My god!!! All of them are so bad. They call out my name when Zul receive the prize and he need to find a partner to dance with him. This Naeser call out my name so damn freaking loud!!!! What to do... I have to dance with him. My god!!!! Its waltz... I dont know anything le. So, I simply dance. Lol!!! But Im having fun. Later, its free dance and I have to dance with Mr Sam. Cant believe that Mr Sam is such a great dancer. Haha!!!

After all the lucky draw and games, its time for us to go back. Before that we have an encore! Free dancing. Everyone was in and we dance till sweat!!! Lmao!!! The party finish around 0330.

I reach home at 0345 and sleep at 0400. Damn!!! Im so sleepy but tomorrow I still have to work at 1000. I just slept for 4hours only. Sooooooo Sleeeeeeepy. Zzz...