Are You My Friend?

"Friends come and go" Heard of this quote before? Yes, I do.

Tons of time when I have problems with my friends.

The quote came across my mind whenever I feel they are neglecting me.

It always happens on me.

What is friends for you?

I have alot of friends but true friends may be one or two.

They fall into different type of groups :

1) Facebook friends - Someone with "Hey" and "Bye"

2) College friends - Someone to hang out with after class and there is a distance between us. No secrets are told to them.

3) Colleagues - Someone that I have to communicate with them due to work issues.

4) BFFs - Someone who I share every single things in my life. In return, they will be by my side whenever Im down or happy.

Which categories do you think you are in?

Dont ask me. Ask yourself as you know better than I do.

Happy Moonlight Resonance

Rushing for assignment and I dont even have the time to go out.

Dang! I hate last minutes work.

But I cant do anything.

This post is not intended to blame anyone.

Not my group member or my friend.

It just happen at the time that I just found out I need to pass up Facilities Operations on this Friday instead of next monday.

Everything is done.

Only executive summary, last part, the financial and printing part!!!

I promised my group members that I can help them print the assignment but I didnt expect that Boon Gin's office printer is spoiled and send to repair.

Everything fucked up!

Need to bring to the shop for printing.

That shop "sucks blood"!!!

One page of colour printing is rm2.50

WTF!!!

Or Fuck my fucking life!

Bad things always happen on me.

Nothing good ever happen on me.

I dont want to be emo again.

Trying to think positive.

Forget about the screw up life and celebrate the Mooncake festival.

Happy Mooncake Festival!!!

P.s: Gonna release my stress by going out to celebrate Joyce's birthday at UPR. Tomorrow will be a better day, right??? =]

Teardrops After Listening To It

OMG!!!!!

Can you believe it that my tears drop after listening to each of every Jay's song???

As usual I dont have anything to do in Sundays noon.

Usually I will take a nap or listen to music.

I decide to listen to Jay's songs.

Random one.

While listening I dont really understand the songs.

I need to understand it not the chinese pin yin but I need the english translation for me to understand it better.

I found one webpage that are very useful to "bananas" like us who love and appreciate Jay's masterpieces.

Jay Studio....

Very good translating and I understand the songs well =D

Until, I listen to Common Jasmine Orange (Qi Li Xiang), I'm Not Worthy (Wo Bu Pei) and the latest Superman Cant Fly (Chao Ren Bu Hui Fei).

Soooooo touching and meaningful till Im sobbing.

Especially Superman Cant Fly. He expressed his feelings through in the song and I can feel it.

BRAVO!!!

I WILL LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU, JAY EVEN MORE THAN BEFORE.

Efffff Streamyx!!!

Finally I have problem with streamyx connection.

I always heard people keep on complaining about the line always lag and etc.

Now I know.... =[

I dont really know what is wrong with my streamyx line.

I can sign in my msn but I have problem with playing facebook games and exploring fews webpage.

Im using google chrome and it always shows that "the webpage is temporarily down or may have change the address."

I need to keep on refresh the page.

Sometimes it works sometimes no....

WTF is wrong with streamyx?!!!

Its been a week.

ARGHHHHHH!!!!

Don't Mess With Me

I suppose everyone that knows me well should know that Im not a person that you can bully easily. Im a loud person. I will talk back if I dont like the way you talk. Please dont feel offended with my words. Sometimes I dont mean it but sometimes I DO.

Here's a girl is finding trouble with me. She's a loud person and of course she is even louder than me. She think that she know some of the "three lines" clan friends and she can talk whatever she likes. Her words always hurts people feelings. Most of the people tends to keep quiet. But when you're messing with me. I dont think so.

You said that you're hurt with my words and you wont talked to me anymore? WTF! I dont care. As you can talk like a bitch why cant I? You can talk whatever you want, why cant I? You can hurts people feeling with your words, why cant I?

So Sick Yet Having Fun

Im sick again. Having flu. Maybe my antibodies are weak that's why I get sick easily. Haizzz. Tomorrow gotta attend Mr Foo's class. Im not sure whether I been able to go or not as Im so sick.

Bella and her bf are such an ass. Keep on asking me to go tomorrow night. Damn! I cant resist it. I think Im going tomorrow. Gonna have fun before the finals, right everyone xD

Between, Im so sick and broke! Spend too much for the prom and party perhaps. *sigh* Cant wait for Sunday where I get my pay. =D

Big Sigh

2012 finally here! I mean 2012 (movie) I wanted to catch it on the very first day but too bad its damn freaking FULL on the first day itself. I went to buy the tickets at 1200 for 1835 show but its full already!!! They have 4 halls and all were fully booked!!! DAMN!!! Didnt get to watch it.

But I dont really wanna watch it yesterday as Im feeling sleepy. I scared I might sleep in the cinema. Its like 2012 is watching RanNy sleeping than RanNy watching 2012. Since its full, I went back home and slept at 2100. xD Eventhough I sleep early but I still feel sleepy today during SQM and Japanese class.

Dont blame me.... I slept at 0500 on wednesday and I woke up at 0900 on thursday. I do that every wednesday. Hehe!!!

*BIIIIIIIIG SIGH.............*

I need to study for Front Office and SQM for next week mid term. Mr Adie inform us kinda late and sudden. What the function, sir?!! We dont even have the complete notes for both subject. How am I going to sit for your mid term? Mr Adie, you make me stressed and guilty at the same time. Im stressed coz Im not ready for the test yet. Im guilty because Im too playful that I cant concentrate in revising your notes. WTF WTF WTF!




P.S : I will pamper myself with Kit Kat Bites that I've just bought at the Beach Street during my lunch break with my coursemates. Then, I will watch my favourite tvb series, Beyond The Realm of Conscience. After that only I will start doing my revision while listening to Big Bang's Let Me Hear Your Voice.This is the RanNy's way to release stress. =]

Im Stress But You Wouldnt Know

Im feeling the stress right now. Exam stress! 3 more weeks to go for exam. How??? What should I do??? I think most of the subject the lecturers didnt managed to finish the syllabus on time. We have to come back to college during our study break for Mr Foo's class. Im scared and nervous. Semester 2 is harder than semester 1.

Haizzz....

I have a bad feeling. I think I might do badly in my coming exam. 3 distinctions to no distinction. Damn! Gotta study real damn hard for it =[

WAWAWAWAWAWAWAWA!!!

Horror? Think again

First of all, I would like to inform everyone that Im good *sort of.. =/* I will always remember her, Louise, my beloved dog. Thanks for all the concern from my friends. =]

Just watch Phobia 2, a Thai horror film at QBM with Ewan and Dyra. Horror movie??? Think again. This movie has 5 part with different stories. The first one is Novice. Its about karma. What you did is what you get as I believe. Its not that scary. Maybe the sound effect will make u scared and I dont really like the stories.

Second is Ward. About a teenager *the guy is cute =P* who meet with accident and broke both of his legs. He was sent to the EU and had to share a room with a coma grandpa. At night the grandpa haunt him. Watch it and you will know what happened to him at last.

Backpackers is the third story where two Japanese teens trying to hitch a car but they dont have any ideas that they were in the wrong car. In this story its not about ghost but its about zombie/man eaters.

Salvage is about a women that are selling damaged cars to her customer by telling them that the cars are never involved in any accidents. Well, the ending is kinda sad. ='[I love the last story, In The End. LOL until the end of this story. Its funny and I dont think its a ghost story. Haha!!!

Now, going to get my Front Office's assignment done. Bye!

Alone

This week Im so freaking frustrated!!!

I dont know why.

Dont really enjoy my semester break as something happened that hurt my feelings so badly.

Emo is back! Darn!

I have a feeling that Im DOOM for this semester!!!

Assignment SUCKS AS HELL!!!

You dont want me to start talking bout it. *I might cuss all the way*

Feeling depressed right now!!!

No one ever understand my feelings. People always see me smiling and happy go lucky but actually Im not. I just pretend to be happy.

I HATE You

I think Im quite bad-tempered recently. I dont know why... PMS??? I dont think so...

Here's what happened just now at my work place...

I was about to punch in for my first break at 1430. Its Awie's turn to go for break and I saw him standing at the fitting room and talking to Pent. i asked him to punch out first then you can continue your grandmother-fucking story but he say, "yeah, just one more moment." I told him to punch out now coz we are not supposed to punch out late during our break time as we will get rm2 punishment. Then, he started to scold me that I like to nag. Hey excuse me! Im not nagging. If I nag it should be sound like this, "hey go punch out! bla bla bla x 100 times" I didnt do that. Alright, I keep myself calm. I didnt fight back as I dont want to fight with the asshole!!!

Again, he did that for my second break. He had finished his shift, then he supposed to punched out first before taking his stuff in the locker. Then, I saw him talking to Edward while packing his stuff and he didnt punch out. I think that its not fair for everyone as he didnt punch out and its after 1830 means that after 1830, its consider over-time. I just asked him to punch out then he scold me again that I nag too much.

Great!!! Im so pissed off at that moment then we started to fight. He shout at me and so do I. I cannot stand his attitudes anymore. I say all the bad things about him. He just ask me to keep quiet while walking out from the store room. I scream at him, "YOU ACTED INNOCENCE IN FRONT OF EVERYONE BUT ACTUALLY YOU'RE NOT. SO PLEASE STOP PRETENDING!!!!"

He should feel lucky that I didnt drop the F-bombs.

After he went back, my supervisor asked me to control myself, not to quarrel with him. Asked me to keep quiet if I cannot stand him just complaint to her. Let me make things clear. Im not that kind of person that can keep quiet if i didnt do anything wrong. I will fight and defend for myself. I dont mind to lose him as my friend as I dont give a fucking damn to be his friend.

So, Mohamad Aswani, you better mind your language. Im not done with you yet!!!

>=[

Im Not Your F*cking Driver!

Maybe some of you might think that Im selfish but I dont give a fucking damn about it.

I know that I did pass by jetty everyday after our class but can you guys be a little more considerate??? I can fetch you if you ask me properly.



Dont come and ask me to fetch you but suddenly you disappeared like that. As if I know where you go. Someone pass me a message from you that you wanna go to the old building and buy your fucking bread! Why cant you tell me that, "Ranny, Can you fetch me to jetty and wait for me for awhile as Im going to buy bread at cafeteria first." If you do this then I wont be that pissed off!



You told your messenger that you will meet me at the carpark a little while but I've waited you quite long but you didnt appear yet. What the fuck are you doing at the cafeteria?!! You are wasting my time!!!



Im not your goddamn fucking driver!



Then, finally, you're here. You did apologize but its not accepted. And how dare you to eat your fucking toasted bread inside my car and pretend nothing happen??? Im annoyed with fucking chewing bread noise!



I might be fucking pissed off right now but I just wanted to say that I will fetch anyone of you if you, if you asked me properly. Pei Wei and Thiviya, dont worry. Im still going to fetch you if possible.











PS: If you feel uncomfortable with my F-words, please dont read this blog. Or maybe you might just leave! Thank you.

I give up

Wednesday is going to be my last paper, FA!!! The hardest subject of all. I dont like accounts... What to do... =[

I should be studying now. Not now but for the past few days as I need more... I mean A LOT OF TIME to study, be friend with account and understand them. But I didnt do so... I was fooling around for the past few days.....

Today is monday!!!! GAGAGAGAG!!! I am going to die soon =[

I think I should give up....

Just glance through the notes and try to memorize as much as I can and enter the exam hall with panic attack....

Haizzzzz..




Love Boys Like Girls new single = Love Drunk!!! <3333

... And Its Over Now

Its over...

*Him is such a womanizer...

Now only I realised...



What a SHAME!!!





And *Him is so hipokrit!!! >=[





Well, Im OVER It!!!

Hanging out with Ai Ling and Ashley today and both of them are updating me with judo's gossips.

I'm having fun listening to their gossip.

Honestly i'm thinking of joining back judo but...

Well, they are going to sukma tomorrow... I'm jealous about it. As last time I remember that I'm very into judo eventhough I'm not good in it. But I like it... I believe that Judo Is The Way of My Life... I used to say that I wont quit judo so soon. I've joined lots of competition for the last 2years and I love it, no matter I won or lost in the competition. I just LOVE it. Last time I dream of training hard to join and win in Sukma 2008. But I've quit =(

Its a bit small but the above is the surat pengesahan penyertaan Judo Sukma 2008 on 15 March 2008. My name is there... In the RED CIRCLE. But now my name has been taken out. =(

And there is no turning back time for me to remake the decision again. There is no use for me to regret about it. I've choose to quit and thats it.

p.s : I really hope that there is a time machine for me to turn back the time... =( Anyway, GOOD LUCK to Penang Judo Team in Sukma 2008!!!! Gambateh!!!!

My Current Mood... Sad and Depressed

It is a fate that we have to be like this??? No Care... No Love... Just Disappointment...

Not all scars show, not all wounds heal
Sometimes you can't always see
The pain someone feels.